When it Rains it Pours

i've been dancing more and more at The Whisky. i love that place so much and the people there simply amaze me. From the staff to the musicians to the people who drop in. And i am so proud to work in a place that everyone loves. i have never been much into this whole concept of "family" in sl. i have a family and, quite frankly, they are more than enough. But, its true about the closeness of friends becoming family. D the DJ called me his "little sister" the other day and i about started to weep i was so touched. Yes, it's sl, but we feel it. Thats why we are here.

On the dancefloor at The Whisky

And feeling is precisely what i am doing with Mistress. She brings me to life. i started to feel bad because of my reaction and how strongly its taken hold of me. Mainly it was feeling guilty over my feelings now and Master being in sl too. He and i talked about it for a long time and i disclosed to Him how i was with sl and rl and the sl/rl crossover. my sl will never compromise sl. It cant. He told me He's been curious and watching, but also knows that i need this dimension too. i ache when He is away. Not the good kind of ache either. I crave His touch and His voice caressing me. Soothing me. Empowering me. i needed to reaffirm that to Him. My Master. My love.

i hate to use the phrase, but it applies here; i am blessed to have such an amazing Man in my life.

"SL is another dimension of the same self we are in the flesh," He tells me. "People who flip burgers dream of being astronauts, and astronauts dream of being cowboys. What matters is where their hearts are and in what world it beats."

Always the professor.

But i needed that. Especially considering He just started seeing someone in sl. Not sure i feel too ok with it (yes, a total double-standard), but i have to know that the security i feel for U/us is the same that He feels. O/our connection is so deep that i DO feel Him.

i just miss Him.